Satan has been relentless the past few weeks. Daily life has been hectic, stressful, overwhelming, hard and tiring. Guilt and second guessing has filled my thoughts and emotions. I continue to have a constant nagging voice telling me that I am selfish and irresponsible for going to Ethiopia for 4 weeks. I just started a new job. What will people think of me that I am leaving for 4 weeks when I have only had this job for a month? Yes, my work has been unbelievably supportive and generous in allowing me to go to Ethiopia. No, they have not done anything that has caused me to feel guilty or second guess their support in any way. My nephews and niece are staying with my parents for a couple of months. I feel selfish. I should be here to help out. I should have this time to spend time with the kids. Yes, my family has been supportive of me returning to Ethiopia (for the most part). No, they have not made me feel guilty about the fact I will not be here to help out with the kids. I have been feeling inadequate (which I am ). I am unprepared. When I had decided months ago that I would be returning to Ethiopia I quickly jumped ahead in my mind to now… a week before my departure. I thought I would be more prepared spiritually, emotionally and physically. However, I feel tired, weak and overwhelmed spiritually, emotionally and physically. I am unprepared.
Satan is the father of lies. A deceiver armed to steal, kill and destroy. Adversary. Accuser. Enemy.
Satan has been relentless BUT Christ is victorious.
Satan is the father of lies. A deceiver armed to steal, kill and destroy. Adversary. Accuser. Enemy.
Satan has been relentless BUT Christ is victorious.
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Here is an advice from a passerby, don't be guilt, it is all god's plan for you. You are where you are needed most, he has taken care off the rest.
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